One of those revelations...

I figured I might as well put this into writing (or typing perhaps?), cause I've read, and heard a lot of things which say that if you put what you're thinking into writing, you're giving your thought physical form, making it more meaningful, giving it more meaning to yourself. So I figured I'd put this down to remind myself of what crossed my mind an hour or so ago...


So it was just after writing my last blog post (an ounce of action, anyone?) and I was just pondering over one of my dreams from the previous night...or should I say, nightmare? It goes as follows...I dreamt that I saw the devil himself offering people who were about to die a choice: You can either choose to die completely, as in...total and utter nothingness, or you can choose to live forever - as a stone sculpture. In my dream one fellow picked the latter choice thinking it was the better choice...only once it had happened, he started screaming...


That nightmare was one of the few dreams/nightmares that have caused me to wake up, scared. And I was just thinking about it this afternoon, while washing some dishes when it actually hit me: One day I am actually going to die. Yes, it is something OBVIOUS, but when you really think about it...one day we will no longer be able to anything, experience anything...we will simply just be...dead. I felt a chill run down my spine as I thought about this, watching the water from the tap flow over my fingertips...


Afterwards, it had me thinking...every second that I spend not performing at what I know to be my best, is a second that can no longer be retracted. I am inevitably going to be dead one day. We all owe a death, that is one of life's certainties. And it really hit me there...why do I live life, not trying to be the best at what I can...?


This post doesn't really adequately explain what I was thinking back then....but I do hope that I can look back and read this, and the same feeling that I had when I was thinking why not live life trying to be as best I can be will come over me again, and I will feel glad. 


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